MTNGoatOnWheels

MTNGoatOnWheels

Scientific Name: Oreamnos americanus on wheelius
Location: Perched on steep cliffs high in the snowy mountains of North America looking to move
Diet: High mountain vegetation; primarily grasses, mosses, lichens, herbs and the occasional powerbar.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

yay me!!!!

I took a cholera vaccine (second dose of Dukoral) and I don't feel sick! I do feel very tired though, kinda sleepy, but not the dizzyness and weak-in-the-legs feeling of last week. I guess that means I have protection against the shits.

On another note, M the climbing partner I think has given up gym climbing. Yesterday was the first wednesday that we've not climbed in a long time. Hmm, I guess some people take things a little too serious.

It's Thursday! Weekend is almost here. Thank God!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

quick post

To vent...
Firstly, let me say that I've not posted in a few days. Life sucks, deal with it.
Now on to the venting part.
I'm at the gym, third day straight of hard climbing so I'm not at 100% but I'm doing easy routes or routes that I'm used to. No big deal.
My climbing partner is having an average day, or so it seems. At one point, near the end of the sesson, I simply suggest she get on the black route. A rather hard 5.11 climb. Well, since grades mean shit at the gym I go to, it's probably a hard 5.11 or a hard 5.10D either way, it's a hard climb who has handed many their ass on a platter. Her limit, I think, is about a 5.10 so this climb is above or at her limit at best. She decides to go for it. Cool, I'm on belay and I'm a pretty safe belayer so no worries about her killing herself. I even offer to clip the first few draws for her, she declines. She is on the climb, first clip, no panic. She goes up a few inches and high clips the next draw, smart move as it does wonders for the mental game. I'm thinking falls now are going to be relatively safe, still nasty as it's only the second clip but way safer than the first or no clips. Her next clip, because she chose the easy line of clips, has a bit of a runout to it but the moves are solid and as long as the climber keeps the shit together it should go fine. She does the first few moves but doesn't trust her shoes to hold onto a small hold, a very important hold at that too. She backs down and calls a take while being a few inches past her clip and off to the right. I pull in the rope tight and I see her tie-in points come very close if not at the clip. She lets go of the wall and does a minor swing, knocking her off balance a bit. It didn't look pretty but she was on the rope and safe. She asks to be let down and I do so without hesitation (usually I leave people up there to work the route). She is not pissed. SO mad in fact, she starts coiling her rope and about to go home. Not saying a word to me, ovbiously mad as hell. She commented to another climber friend that she will always stay at 5.5's with a detremental tone. Bad attitude, many times I've mentioned that the best climber is the one who has the most fun, who cares at what grade is that. But anyhow, she is steaming mad and going home. Now, I don't really give a flying fuck about her attitude but the fact is that I'm going to Thailand to climb with her. I'm just afraid she is going to pull something similar and leave me dry without a belayer, which will suck. But anyhow, I'm not overly worried. I'm pretty easy going, I climb reasonably hard so hopefully I won't have trouble making friends while overseas. I just wish she wouldn't take that attitude as it really takes the fun out of climbing. But, I'm going to deal with it and when I get back from Thailand, I will surely get rid of this partner. I don't need to climb with anyone who doesn't enjoy climbing.

Monday, October 17, 2005

One of the best all time songs

Love will tear us apart

When routine bites hard
and ambitions are low.
And resentment rides high
but emotions won't grow.
And we're changing our ways
taking different roads.

Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold
turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed
our respect run so dry?
Yet there's still this appeal
that we've kept through our lives.

Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Do you cry out in your sleep,
all my failings expose?
Gets a taste in my mouth
as desperation takes hold.
Why is it something so good
just can't function no more?

Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again...

- Joy Division

Sunday, October 16, 2005

That was

A very boring saturday...
I could have gone climbing, but I just couldn't be assed.
That is all.

Friday, October 14, 2005

It's about time

That I posted something. It's been a while, I've not been feeling very cheery for the past few days, that, I blame the weather. It's going to rain, rain, rain for the whole weekend and probably will spill into next week.

So, what's been going on?

Germany got MSN last week, so I've been steadily talking to her, which is cool as conversation with her is actually interesting. Right now, she is on a two week vacation in Greece. I'm supposed to receive a postcard from her at some point.

I've received my films back from last weekend's wedding. They turned out ok! Well, almost. I made a few mistakes but I do think I have enough shots to cover, although it sucks. If it weren't for my mistakes, that wedding would have been almost perfect, considering that I've not taking anything pro for about 6 years. I'm not going to cry over spilled milk. I've got some pretty decent shots, I've yet to count them, but I do think I have enough to make the album. I shall scan a few over the weekend, very under the radar like.

I'm scheduled to go in for my vaccinations next Wednesday. They are going to be pretty expensive, but none the less needed. The last thing I want is a permanent reminder of my long overdue vacation to Asia.

In a month, I shall be in Thailand. I am looking forward to taking pictures and seeing the sights. This will be the first vacation I ever take for myself. I'm being very careful not to have anything go wrong before I leave. That definitely includes dealing with my mother. She is getting a bit restless these days but I'm holding up. My climbing/travel partner is not looking as good as a few months ago. She does have this attitude on her. It doesn't bother me, I'm not feeling guilty because she gets all worked up and depressed because she cannot climb as she'd like to. Well, welcome to the real world where things are hard. Anyhow, I'm not worried. I'm going on vacation with her, but it pretty much looks like I will be independent. My aspirations for Thailand have shifted from being the climbing bum, to taking pictures, being a photographer.

Brother has been acting a bit strange lately. A few weeks ago, my mother and he must have gotten in a quarrel. I don't know why as he has not told me anything. I tried to ask him about it, but he has shut everyone out. Fine with me. If he doesn't want my help, well, I'm not going to offer it anymore. I'm pretty much tired if being the glue that is keeping my family (what little of it is left) together. I've come to realize that he definelty want to break all ties, which is fine with me, as I can take care of myself. My mother is old, and unfortunately will not be with us for ever, but she is one strong woman. Albeight, she is dead set in her ways and often does not give way to others. I've decided now to live my life as best as I can given the space I have. What other choice do I have?

Well, in a nutshell, those are the news. As you can probably tell from the tone of this post, I'm not feeling very cheerful, but that is life, sometimes you don't get to see the clowns perform at the circus.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Yes

I'm still around, although I don't feel like writing much these days...
I'm waiting for my films to return from the lab, they are from M's wedding last saturday.
I'm so nervous...

Monday, October 03, 2005

And here we go

It's Monday. Start of a new week. I'm in my office wasting time since my dear coworker does his job half assed. I would really like to know if I'll get the work I requested on Friday by today, mind you, this work should have been completed of Friday. But anyhow, I don't give a hoot. I've just finished editing and posted my pictures from the weekend.

Speaking of the weekend... I went to Photo Service to pick up chemicals and black and white film. As much as I appreciate Corlab, I definetly want to get back to developing my films. Firstly because I develop them as soon as I get home; none of this waiting 2 days to go pick them up cross town. Secondly because, well, to develop one black and white film I think costs me somewhere of 1.50$ in production costs. But, thirdly, I want to do black and white because it's a more expressive medium than color is. It's true, color film make everything look "pretty". With black and white, one really has to concentrate more on texture, composition, the general feeling of an image.

Saturday, after having picked up all my chemicals and my film loaded into their cassettes, I grabbed my grey card, tripod and camera. I set up a basic scene outside on the patio. I had to make a film test in order to determine how the combination of the camera's meter, the film processing (agitation, chemicals, hardness of water) and the camera's metering system will work. I had done this previously with other films, but not with the final medium being a scanned image. Well, before now, my medium of choice was paper! Well, it still is, but circumstances being what they are, I don't have the option of setting up my enlarger. For now, the scanner and my computer (or my website) will have to do. Here are the results of the film test:

With test in hand, lots of film in my pocket, on Sunday I set out to take pictures. I didn't really plan on taking pictures, but I got stood up for climbing. Anyhow, I headed towards Old Montreal in the afternoon. As usual, I started walking around but, since I'm not working with color, I was seeing a bunch of new images appear to me. I've walked pretty much every square foot of the Old Port and I can always make a different picture. I started out like my previous outing. Getting off on the outskirts of the downtown business district and headed towards the river and the Old Port. Turning on alley ways and little cobble stone streets, which is the charm of Old Montreal, you know, life in the 1800's. It was an amazing day. Nice and warm without a single cloud in the sky, which was not entirely good for me as I would have liked some texture in the sky lines. But I'm not complaining, I take what I can get.

Before long, I get to the real tourist section of the Port. A large crowd is gathering up surely to watch a street performer do his show. I go and join in, poking my lens between the people standing. Sure enough, it's a street performer. I had seen him previously, he is quite good. His show consists of comedy, fire juggling and riding a unicycle. The crowd is rather large around him and he looks to be enjoying what he is doing, after all, he is an artist and to have a crowd like that come and watch your work is pretty satisfying. Unfortunately, I had gotten to his show a bit on the late side. I did not have a good vantage point on him despite of circling the crowd to find a little hole I could squeeze in. I decided to go on with my tour. I was going to go along the boardwalk and see if there are any shots worthwhile. I did manage to find a few! I also saw a guy who sets up an outdoor climbing wall. It looked to be about 30 feet high, no texture on the wall and dead easy. I would figure at best a 5.7 in difficulty. I didn't bother to take any pictures of that, in fact, I had to crop that structure out of a frame. Mind you, that picture did not make the final selection. I kept walking. I arrived at the over pass, well, at least I call it an over pass. It's this second level walkway overlooking the port. Boats are docked on the water and people keep strolling by. To tell you the truth, it's a pretty relaxing walk! Granted, I've never really walked there just for the sake of walking. Most of the time I've always had a camera in my hands.

Coming to full circle from where the street performer was, I decide to go mingle with the crowd. A bunch of people walking around is bound to be interesting, besides, I needed people close up in my frames. As I'm walking, I hear that same performer start screaming: "Show is about to begin!" I think to myself: "Rad!" as there was no one around him. I snap a picture of him. He did notice me taking pictures, but he didn't mind at all, he was actually pretty easy going. Not like the "free hugs" guy from a few weeks back. I take a place and squat down on the floor. I was not going to miss this show. I take a few more frames. Now, the crowd has gathered around him. Like before, there is a bunch of people but this time, I have a front row seat. I quickly check the frame counter on my camera and I notice that I'm at around frame 20. I figure, at best I have 10 shots left. I decide to sacrifice them and change the roll for a fresh one. Now, film loaded, I begin to snap pictures! I try not to burn film, but instead I was selective to the frames I snap off. As I mentioned before, I had noticed this performer before, on previous outings, but I don't think I had ever sat through one of his shows in it's entirety. I did on this one. The guy is pretty good! He uses comedy, he engages with the audience and, of course, he has his stunts going. The show lasted for about 10 minutes, the finale being him riding a unicycle and juggling pins. The crowd dissipated and I went on my merry way to finish off the roll of film I currently had in the camera. I had a great Sunday afternoon, even better, getting home and getting right to processing my films. It's the beauty about working with black and white. It's a do-it-yourself'er.